I want to take a step back in time and talk about some odd situations that happened in the past few months to a year.
Dawson and I had an Xbox 360 that I had bought off of him in the past so he could pay for bills he was behind on, or so that's what I thought it was for at the time. Turns out it was just drug money. He sold his Call Of Duty Black Ops II game. So when I bought the Xbox off of him he was sad because he already sold our favorite game.
So what did I do? As if it wasn't already obvious...I bought a new one. There went $140 instantly.
Another instance was later down the road whenever Dawson told me our Xbox had broke and he lent it to a friend to fix. He told me he needed $60 to buy a part for it to fix it. I didn't believe him so I told him no. I just didn't feel right about it. He told me he would pay it back to me if it didn't fix it. I kept saying no and he would send me a bunch of texts saying rude things to me, guilting me into doing these things because if I didn't then our relationship would end. Only because it showed I didn't trust him and he didn't want to be with someone who didn't trust him.
He ended up paying me back saying the Xbox couldn't be fixed so he just sold it along with all our games. I was pissed! That was my Xbox and MY games that I paid for. He went behind my back and sold all of my stuff. Later, I found out it was for drugs, just as I suspected. Once again I let him manipulate me.
When I worked at the golf course I had to bring in my own money to make change for customers because we didn't use a cash register drawer. I would bring in $40 cash and about $10 in coins. I constantly kept a $50 bank. I also kept it in a little pencil bag I would just keep in my purse. One day when I got to work I counted out my money like I would every day, and I was about $10 short. I thought maybe I counted wrong the night before. A few days later I realized I was short about $20. I called Dawson and asked him if he took money out of my purse. He promised me he didn't and I let it go at that. But I felt like he was stealing from me. I decided to leave my money at home before I went to his house. Once I started doing that I wasn't missing money anymore.
A couple weeks later Dawson and I made plans to go get him tools after I got off work. When I left work I didn't take my money home, I went straight to pick Dawson up. I was aware I had my money on me and was being careful. We went to the mall and I bought him his tool kit which he was to pay me back once he got a job. We then went to another store and at all times my purse was on me. I made one stupid mistake though.
We went to a third store and I just was going to run in and run back out. I grabbed my wallet out of my purse but I had my money bag tucked into a back zipper of my purse hidden. I told Dawson id be right back. I didn't think he would take any money with me just being so quick in and out of the store. As I was ringing out at the counter Dawson walked in. I asked him why he didn't wait in the car and he just said he wanted to be with me. I thought it was sweet. We went back to the car and I took him home and then I went home. I didn't check my purse because there was no way Dawson dug through my bag and took the time to swipe some cash and put it all back in the matter of time it took him to come in the store after me.
Well, the next day at work I went to take my money out and my entire money bag was missing. I immediately got upset and text Dawson and I questioned him. He was the only person alone with my purse from the time I left work until I went home. He said he didn't and would never steal from me, but I didn't believe him.
He told me someone might have got in my car while we were in the store and stole it. That was just ridiculous. If someone was stealing they would have took my purse not dug through it to find a pencil bag that just so happened to have cash in it.
Dawson never admitted to stealing money from me in our entire time of being together, but I know it was him.
Dawson said and did whatever he could to get his way at all times. I was responsible for buying the Xbox because if he sold it to "Game Stop" he would start using because his Xbox was his go-to when he needed to keep his mind straight. It was my responsibility to buy him new games. It was my responsibility to pay to fix the Xbox, and it was my responsibility to buy him tools. If I didn't do all these things Dawson would become angry and put the blame on me. I was capable of helping him and if I didn't I guess that meant I didn't love him.
This is how he made me feel. But this man truly loved me, he wasn't using me, he wasn't manipulating me. He really just needed help and I was all he had.
That's what I thought and told myself in the moment. I was taken and blinded by Dawson.
