2. Getting there..

Every girl dreams of that magical proposal with that dream ring. Well imagine this happening by a guy you're not even dating.

Who would do that? Why would someone be crazy enough to do that?

Now let me back up again and explain how this happened.

Remember how I said I was 22 and recently got out of a relationship with a controlling thoughtless guy? After my pathetic self begged for him not to leave me and he continued to walk out of my life, I started to move on..with Dawson. His name was Mick, and he so wasn't worth the begging.

I was happy talking to Dawson, being excited for a fresh start with a guy who truly cared about me and enjoyed listening to me talk. One day Mick pops back into my life because HE wants me back. I didn't know what I wanted. All I knew is Dawson made me happy but Mick was also a big part of my life for so long. So what does every girl do when she's confused? She dates both.

Okay, so it wasn't the smartest decision on my part, but I was stupid. I might of been stupid but I was honest. Dawson knew about Mick, and Mick knew about Dawson. I went on a few dates with Mick to see if maybe we could re-spark what we once had...but every time I was with him all I could think about was Dawson and wondering what he was doing. I knew what I wanted.. and that was to tell Mick goodbye and start an exclusive relationship with Dawson. I wasn't the only person who knew that's what I wanted either. Mick didn't want to give up. He would show up at my work and I would avoid him as much as I could. Sure, I felt bad about it, but he hurt me so badly that I was ready for something new. He had his chance every day the year and a half before this moment. So one morning as I'm getting ready for work Mick shows up at my house to talk. I basically just told him I didn't have time for any of it. He got down on one knee and pulled a small box out of his pocket. The only thing I remember feeling was anger. I stopped him dead in his tracks and told him to stand up. The ring he had bought was my dream ring that I had picked out for myself for years. I was so upset and angry with him. We weren't even together anymore and he thought a proposal would win me back?  I couldn't believe it. That moment that every girl dreams of was stolen from me by some asshole who didn't deserve the love I gave him in the time we were together.

I didn't yell at him like I wanted to. I guess I was in too much disbelief to bother. It wasn't too shortly after that I cut him out of my life for good.

Dawson and I still didn't become exclusive for reasons of my own. I wasn't sure if he and his wife were completely over. I didn't want to be that girl that's in every cliché Lifetime movie and be someone' s mistress who thinks the marriage is over when it never is. Dawson swore to me that they were done. I wanted to believe him but she was still living with him. He told me it was because she was on a waiting list for the apartment she was supposed to be moving into. I wanted to wait till she left to take things further.. just for my own security.
Turns out she wasn't ready to be done with the marriage like he was.
She wanted to meet me...and so I agreed. I wanted both sides of the story so I was aware of what was really going on. I knew nothing about her, not even what she looked liked. So my boss at the time, who was completely supportive of me and Dawson, told her to come to the bar and that id be waiting and she would mediate the talk...just in case things got heated.

So I waited, and what to come next was something that I could have never anticipated.

1. The Beginning

I was 22 and what I thought was a fairytale romance ended up changing my life in a way that I could have never predicted..

I had just recently got out of a relationship with a guy who was extremely controlling and very thoughtless. I was selfish and immature and only worried about myself. My mindset was to have fun and be free; little did I know one man would change my entire life in matter of days.

I met Dawson  working at a bar. I was a waitress and he was a cook. As sappy and ridiculous as it sounds, I fell in love with him the moment I first set my eyes on him. I didn't know a thing about him..his age or even his last name. All I knew is that I couldn't focus on anything but him. I would go to work on my days off  just to see him even though I didn't have the courage to talk to him. He made eyes at me as well as I did him.

A couple weeks into the job I started to learn things about him, he was 30 years old with 3 children. 2 to his wife...yes I said wife..and another to an ex girlfriend. He was married but separated. I also found out he was on house arrest for possession.

None of these things mattered to me, I still was interested in him and wanted to get to know him. Dawson and I only talked at work about basic things. I didn't even know if he was interested in me, as I was him, until one day I was at the bar.

Now let me back up and explain that a bunch of us at work would make jokes about the craziest things just to get laughs. Dawson and the other cook would make jokes about licking my cheek, and saying it now it seems weird but back at this time it was funny and somewhat made sense. 

Fast forward again to the day I was at the bar.. I was mid conversation with a beer in my hand talking to the bartender, when out of nowhere Dawson pops up and licked my cheek. My jaw dropped and I was speechless for so many reasons. Later that night he had found me on Facebook and sent me a message.

That was the moment Dawson told me he liked me and we began to talk. Such an odd moment for it all to begin but it was a funny story that I still to this day smile when I think about it.

We talked every single day and night. From the moment we woke up till the moment we went to sleep. Nothing in the world was relevant. It was like we were the only two people that existed. For the first time I felt real, very true love. That was the moment that was going to change me forever, and I didn't even know it.