Thursday, January 7, 2016

3. An Awkward Time

My hands were shaking and I was scared beyond belief.

What do I say? Does she start or do I? I let her talk and I listened. She started out by asking me if I had "done" anything with Dawson . I said no and that was the God's honest truth. Dawson  and I haven't even kissed. We were waiting to see if we were really going to end up being together. She then continued to tell me how they met and when they got married. I'm not sure why she was telling me this because it was irrelevant in my eyes. She was probably trying to make me jealous or push me away. She told me that she was not nice to him and didn't treat him too well either. She said she had her reasons for why the marriage got so bad, but she wanted to try and fix it. She said she wanted to go to counseling and if I could just let Dawson  do that with her before they completely give up. I told her I in no way wanted to stand in the way of a family working, but it wasn't my call it was Dawson 's. I told her I would completely support whatever Dawson  wanted to do.

She was not rude to me but I could also see in her eyes she really didn't care one way or another. She talked like she did but it came across really fake to me. Fake or not I would keep my word and not pursue anything unless it was over.

She left and I went to have a drink at the bar. I immediately text Dawson let him know everything was okay. I simply asked him if he had any love left for her to try one more time to make his family work and that I would be there as a friend to support him. He said absolutely not. He said their marriage has been over for a really long time and she knows that. He said it was over before I even came along.

That was the moment we became a couple.

I understand I looked like a complete home wrecker at this point but I knew the facts and that's all I cared about. People could pass judgement at me like I was the person who destroyed a marriage but I did not.

Dawson  said I saved him. He said I was the reason he could breathe again.

That made my heart melt. I couldn't wait to start a new journey with him. A journey that at the time, I believed was going to be the best days of my life. Nothing could ever go wrong because a love like this is once in a lifetime.

However, NOTHING ever goes as we plan.